10 weeks after surgery

So the good news is that the pain is becoming substantially less then since first after surgery. The bad news is that it still hurts. And even though I have more range of motion in my shoulder than when I did when I first came out of the sling, its definately still not right, and at the range I do have the end of the range is still painful.

I think the hardest part of all this is not being able to get back into jiujitsu. I think when I originally planned for surgery I had this false thought that I would be able to get back to it in 6 months and be okay with the time away. Its been just shy of 3 months and I am extremely distraught with how I can't do jiujitsu. I also can't get over how badly i'm going to be at it when I do get back. Not to mention how out of shape I'm going to be.... I think thats also the hardest part, knowing that I will be so tired/out of shape for months even after being back.